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Stop being hurt by sensitivity - 3 habits that transform your innate "affection" energy into "clear boundaries" and find mental and physical health.
Author
- Lumen
Teacher, I've been feeling really strange lately. I feel like I'm having trouble breathing, and my chest keeps feeling tight. I'm sure it's because I'm not feeling well, but on the other hand, I feel like this isn't just a health issue...
Honestly, there's only one thing I want right now: a flexible, strong body like a gymnast. If I had that kind of body, I think I could make money with it. So, I think I could prove my worth with my skills. Right now, I feel like I'm useless. Everyone around me is doing well, but I'm stuck here, unable to achieve anything.
The problem is, even though I'm whipping and abusing myself like this every single day, nothing's happening. My body keeps hurting, my chest feels tight, and I can't sleep properly. It's because I keep thinking about the past. In particular, the things that person said to me back then keep replaying in my head, constantly reminding me of how pathetic I am. Perhaps the reason I'm so desperately trying to be perfect now is because I want to wash away that humiliation, to show the world, "I'm different now."
Sometimes I feel like I'm overly sensitive, overreacting to trivial things, and ruining things by taking matters into my own hands. It's actually a mantra I'm telling myself: "Don't be so sensitive... Don't react so sensitively... Don't take the initiative." If I don't, I'll be disappointed, hurt, and ultimately, I'll be terrified that I'm worthless.
Teacher, I just want to be healthy. And at the same time... I want to feel needed in this world. I don't know where this feeling of suffocation and anxiety is coming from. I'm really confused whether it's my body that's sick, my heart that's sick, or just me being stuck in the past and torturing myself. What should I do?
Reading
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Does the body feel open or closed? Closed.
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Is it warm or cool? It's warm.
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Do you feel like you're with someone or alone? Alone.
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How does it feel? The light is concentrated in one place.
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What do you think? It feels like the condensed light will suddenly release at some point.
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Is there anything else you'd like to say? My sensitivity to light is growing.
Analysis
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You value rational thinking and logic, and excel at understanding all situations from a cause-and-effect perspective and approaching them analytically. Rather than being swayed by emotions, you view the world through clear thinking. Your current state demonstrates that your reasoning is very active. This suggests you are deeply engaged in important decisions or solving complex problems, or possess a strong will to firmly establish your life on logical principles. Your intellect is currently your most powerful tool.
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The red energy gathered in your chest represents a powerful passion and vitality condensed within you. This suggests that you are determined, charismatic, and possess leadership potential.
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The yellow energy radiating outward from your abdomen signifies your inner joy, playfulness, and excitement exploding in explosive form. You are inherently a life-enjoying, fun-seeking person, and this positive energy extends to those around you. The orange swirling from red outward symbolizes your powerful drive and initiative.
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Outer Energy Field: The pink energy surrounding your entire body represents your emotional attitude toward others and the world. It symbolizes warm, positive sensibilities such as affection, empathy, and compassion.
Comprehensive Reading and Advice: Integrating Intellect, Emotions, and Action
You are currently in a highly dynamic state, analyzing the world through the powerful lens of reason, while simultaneously, passion and joy within you explode into action. It's important to connect your reasoning with your explosive power to execute. Leverage your exceptional analytical skills to add elements of planning to your endeavors. It's important to pause and review your plans before taking action.
You need to manage the energy surrounding you healthily. While your natural affection is a clear strength, be sure to clearly define your emotional boundaries so that this energy doesn't degenerate into obsession or sensitivity to external influences. Don't let others' opinions determine your worth.
You possess a rare energy structure that combines decisive leadership potential, cheerful vitality, and clear-headed reasoning. By harmoniously integrating these three powerful axes, your life will move in the most effective and enjoyable direction, balancing reason and passion.